First of all I just want to say welcome to all the new readers who make their way here, and say a huge thank you all of you who have been taking the time to read so far. All the feedback and comments from all of you has been fantastic, it is very much appreciated.

I thought I should just provide a few general comments on the story. First off, it will be updated as often as possible. The aim is to have an update every 2 weeks or so, but sometimes there may be occasional delays. If there is a good reason for a delay other than “to busy drinking beer and doing something lame this week”, I will make sure to let you guys know. This sort of info can be found in the general bollocks and news entry. More information is located on the profile page.

This story does contain adult themes. It would be greatly appreciated if you heed the specific warnings which are included at the beginning of every chapter. I should also mention that sometimes there are images with no text. I am just more visually inclined than textual, and I take the pictures, so sometimes I find that sometimes just lone images are a more elegant way of expressing something.

Just as a general heads up, the time frame for this story will shift regularly. There is one 'main' storyline, which (for the most part) will be told in a linear fashion. However, we will be jumping in and out of that main thread often. Please take note of the headers that mark the start of each scene. This will tell you when and where you are, which does play an important part of the story. If you get confused, these will help guide the way.

I really appreciate the feedback that you guys provide. I should also mention that I thrive on speculation, questions and conspiracy theories. Always feel free to include any, or all of the above in any comments. The more you ask, the more clues you get about the story.

Thanks again for taking time to share this with me,

Cheers - goodbye_sun

she had been gone so long.
there was so much to unlearn.
she opened her eyes.
he was the first thing she saw
and she blamed him.
- Lucille Clifton
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes.

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even now
to hear the words
defend
protect
goodbye
lost or
alone
is to be washed in sorrow
- Lucille Clifton
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes, course language.

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go on, go on back down
into the graveyard,
lie down where you think their faces are;
talk back to your old bad dreams.
- Anne Sexton
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Violence. Blood. Retribution.

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Roads go ever ever on,
Under cloud and under star.
Yet feet that wandering have gone
Turn at last to home afar.
- JRR Tolkien
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Course language.

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You will not soon forget my hands,
Nor yet the way I held my head,
Nor all the tremulous things I said.
You still will see me, small and white
And smiling, in the secret night,
And feel my arms about you when
The day comes fluttering back again.
- Dorothy Parker
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Course language. Cheesy pick up line. Partially undressed pixels. Strong sexual references.

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When you come to me, unbidden,
Beckoning me
To long-ago rooms,
Where memories lie.

Offering me, as to a child, an attic,
Gatherings of days too few.
Baubles of stolen kisses.
Trinkets of borrowed loves.
Trunks of secret words,

I CRY.
- Maya Angelou
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Sappyness. Character death.

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you not a noplace
anonymous girl;
mister with his hands on you
he got his hands on
some
damn
body!
- Lucille Clifton
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Course language. Topless male sim.

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As shines the moon in clouded skies,
She in her poor attire was seen;
One praised her ankles, one her eyes,
One her dark hair and lovesome mien.
So sweet a face, such angel grace,
In all that land had never been.

- Alfred, Lord Tennyson
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Violence. One very minor sexual reference. Use of the word “trollop”.

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When I look for you I find
water or moving shadow

There is no way I can lose you
when you are lost already.
- Margaret Atwood
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Coarse language. Mild sexual reference.

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Fear not the waking world, my mortal,
Fear not the flat, synthetic blood,
Nor the heart in the ribbing metal.
- Dylan Thomas
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Coarse language. Questions and answers.

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In their monstrous night
thick with possible claws
where danger is not knowing,
you are the hugest monster.
- Margaret Atwood
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Coarse language. Bad Fathers. Random historical fact.

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other people think they know
how long life is
how strong life is.
we know.
- Lucille Clifton
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Violence. Simulated blood. One or two cheesy lines.

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Where I came from, the nights I had wandered
and survived, scared them, and where
I would go they never imagined.
- Marge Piercy
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Mild sexual references. Mild coarse language. References to violence. A saucy redhead.

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But what of life whose bitter hungry sea
Flows at our heels, and gloom of sunless night
Covers the days which never more return?
- Oscar Wilde

Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes.

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into that world inverted
where left is always right,
where the shadows are really the body,
where we stay awake all night
- Elizabeth Bishop

Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Coarse language. Character in denial.

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Together we trod the secret lane
And walked the muttering town.
I wore my heart like a wet, red stain
On the breast of a velvet gown.
- Dorothy Parker

Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Violence.

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His eyes were hard as porphyry
With looking on cruel lands;
His voice went slipping over me
Like terrible silver hands.
- Dorothy Parker

Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Course language. Sexual references. Sim in undies. Bare chested sim in a towel.

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The memory is no friend.
It can only tell you
what you no longer have
Margaret Atwood -

Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Course language.

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After night I do crowd,
And with night will go;
I turn my back to the east,
From whence comforts have increas'd;
For light doth seize my brain
With frantic pain.
- William Blake
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Mild coarse language. Violence. Sims in their jammies, undies and towels.

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When day's oppression is not eased by night,
But day by night, and night by day, oppress'd?
And each, though enemies to either's reign,
Do in consent shake hands to torture me
William Shakespeare -
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Coercion. Slightly more lecherous behaviour.

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Since early morning we waited.
Since early, early morning, child.
There must be dreams on the way now.
There must be a song for our bones.
Carl Sandburg -
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Treachery.

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Help me to shatter this darkness,
To smash this night,
To break this shadow
Into a thousand lights of sun
- Langston Hughes
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Coarse language. Mild lecherous behaviour. General evilness.

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There is a panther stalks me down:
One day I'll have my death of him;
His greed has set the woods aflame,
He prowls more lordly than the sun
- Sylvia Plath
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Pixelated blood. Mild swearing. General wickedness.

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I shut my doors on that dark guilt,
I bolt the door, each door I bolt.
Blood quickens, gonging in my ears:

The panther's tread is on the stairs,
Coming up and up the stairs.
- Sylvia Plath
Warnings/Bonuses: Adult themes. Course language.

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